Are You Going Through Hardships In Life?

its been some time since i blogged
many things happened but im not updating those now.
instead i want to post this video especially  as a reminder for myself.

often, ive been nudged awake in the middle of the night - ard 3-4am, felt that i want to perform my night prayers, but only to procrastinate and dozed off to sleep soon after.
but this video of habib ali seems to be Allah's way of telling me why He had woke me up at those moments :(
ighfirli ya Rabb..

note to self : dont remain a BUMMER and not doing anything abt it, until its too late!

 

11th Ramadan 1432H

Its been 10 days since Ramadan greeted me this year.
A third of the blessed month is gone.
I'm worries and scared.
While I may have checked off  my Ramadan to-do items fairly well (although not fully), there's still an emptiness within me. A void.
Ya Allah, please accept my deeds, open up my heart to embrace You in this blessed month.
Save me from regretting my non-doings, Ya Rabb.
Amin.

Can?

Can a lady like me strive to seek knowledge from the habaibs? From learned traditional scholars, within the depths of a saharan desert, in the far-end nook & corner of the village?

I envy those men who are amongst the chosen ones.
Ya Rabb, You know whats in my mind. My desire. Help. Pls pls pls.

Some Ramblings.

I have been listening to the previous qasidah which I posted earlier all day.
First heard it on 1 April at An-Nahdhah's Majlis Zikra Rasul saw.

Listening to qasidahs etc kind of transport me to the magical land faraway.
To Makkah & Madinah. I yearn to be there. Again.
The thought of Rasulullah saw drove me to tears.
I still do not know him that well. I still am struggling to better myself.
But, I still seek to be amongst the blessed ones. The ones whom will get to peek at his glorious glowing face.
The one whom Allah will bless...

To a certain extent, this is the serene life that I dreamt for myself.
A wind-down time daily to just stabilize my day.
To do what I call "divine nightly rituals" - some doas, some quran & some qasidah that may sometimes lull me to sleep. At times,  it continue on till morning. Thanks to beloved iPhone4! Thanks to Allah for your blessings!

There may be reasons why im still i am now.
And I dun mind the secrets remain with Him..
I seek His indulgence to allow me a like-minded partner / spouse.
Ever seekin, ever learning - a fellow team worker.
And most importantly a fellow practicing Muslim, ever ready to explore the wonders that Allah has to offer us.


Would like torattle on. But

Im Sleepy already.

tata. Wassaam

Sholatun Bi Salamin Mubini..

• صلاةبالسلام المبين*

  لنقطةالتعيين ياغرامي.

  نبي كان أصل التكوين* من عهدكن فيكن ياغرامي.

  أيا من جائناحقا نذير* مغيثامسبلا سبل الرشاد.

  رسول الله ياضاوي الجبين* ويامن جاءبالحق المبين.

  صلاةلم تزل تتلي

  عليك* معطارالنسيم تهدي إليك

  
  

(* Sholatun bisalamil mubin...linugthotit ta'yii ni ya ghoroomii)6X Nabiyyuna kaana ashlattak wiini....min ngahdi kun fayakuunu yaa ghoroomii(2X)

back to *(2X) Ayaman ja'ana khakkon nadhiiri...mughiitsan musbilan subularoshaadi(2X)

back to *(2X) Allah Ya Allah Ya Allah Ya Allah (4X) Rosulullahiyaa dhowiil jabiini... wayaamanja'abil khakkil mubiin(2X)

back to *(2X) Sholatulam tazal tutlaa ngalaika...kami' thorin nasiim tuhdaa ilaika (2X)

back to * (2X)

Maknanya :

Shalawat serta salam ku persembahkan kepada mu wahai kekasih ku



Sebagai bukti keteguhan ku,wahai Nabi saw (kekasih ku)

Engkaulah sebenar2nya pemberi peringatan pada masa mu

Wahai kekasih ku,wahai Rasulullah saw yang bercahaya wajahnya penunjuk jalan kebenaran

Tak lekang sholawat tercurah pada mu wahai pembawa kebenaran,laksana hembusan angin yang kencang.

My Search Continues..

I asked the following question last nite on www.eshaykh.com.
With the understanding that my question will not be answered until 2weeks or 1 month later.
But, my question was answered this morning. Less than 12 hours since it was posted.
http://eshaykh.com/dreams/dreams-of-shaykh-nazim/

Ship of Salvation.
Never crossed that in my mind.
The Ark of Noah as.
I also realised last nite that I missed the chance to learn more abt Almarhum Habib Ali who was very close to me.
I had a desire to learn from the very learned since long ago.
From Almarhum Ust Syed Abdillah, then Almarhum Ust Ahmad Sonhadji. Both departed before i got a chance to hear from them. Next I've heard of Almarhum Habib Ali. But never understood who he was until very recently. And whats more startling for me, as though to remind me of the significance, Almarhum Habib Ali passed away on 13 May 2010. My birthday. I have two choices - either to waddle in the lost. Or let it fuel my quest to conquer myself.
I formed opinions on tasawwuf and habaibs etc. Time to unlearn & relearn.
Ya Allah, please open doors for me to seek the right path. Strengthen me, pls Ya Rabb.